Welcome to my little corner of the internet.  If you’re new here, my name’s Vanessa and I aim to be an ally on the spiritual path.


I’ve been getting a lot of questions from you guys about your spiritual/kundalini awakening and what’s happening…WHAT IS GOING ON inside of you?! If you are having a spontaneous spiritual/kundalini awakening and you don’t know what’s happening, it can be SCARY AF. SERIOUSLY. One of the more disturbing symptoms is this feeling of depression, isolation and detachment from your life. 

This happens is because when we experience a big spiritual awakening, because the awakening actually deflates our ego…Just fricken crushes it! When this happens, it can almost feel like a death. It can almost feel like the you who was…has died. It’s weird…you can actually feel like a bit of a ghost walking around through your own life, and this can create a profound sense of loneliness. When our ego gets deflated like that, all of the sudden it’s like you don’t know who you are.

The ego is what creates our personality and our identity. The ego creates the avatar of you…who you THINK you are based on all of the stories that you’ve accumulated over your life…all of the programming that you’ve taken in over your life, all of your past experiences and all of the emotions that have gone with those past experiences. So, when your ego gets deflated during a spiritual awakening, all of that falls away. It can feel really scary and kind of throw you off balance because all of the sudden, none of those things make sense anymore.

You could start really feeling like you just want to be alone all the time and then while you’re alone, feeling this profound sense of loneliness because your personality has fallen away, your identity has fallen away. You’re left there without a sense of a foundation, and you can feel really vulnerable because your spirit is just here without illusion for a while. 

When you’re in that space, your spirit can long to go home, and this can even compound the loneliness and make you want to isolate more.


So I wanted to tell you that this is a normal thing and it doesn’t last forever.  IT DOES NOT LAST FOREVER.

Along with the loneliness you might notice that your taste in shows, books, everything…shifts. Things that you used to be interested in, you’re not interested in anymore. You just might feel disillusioned and as though nothing in your life makes sense anymore. You might also think you’re losing your mind, honestly, but you’re not. 


You’re not losing your mind, you’re having a spiritual awakening. 

I know this loneliness can make you question whether anyone in the world can understand what you’re going through, but trust me, you’re not alone. People are waking up at an exponential rate right now and you are not alone. This will not last forever, and you’re going to be ok.


There is a purpose for this loneliness.

This loneliness and this isolation is the time for self-reflection. It’s a time to look at all of the relationships in your life and see what and who doesn’t resonate with you anymore. And it’s allowing you to create space for the Universe, for God, to bring you people who do resonate with you on a deep level, with who you actually are…not with the identity you had created for yourself. When you are separated from these external crutches, these people that you relied so heavily on, and these material things that you thought were so important, this awakens youu to the divinity within. It forces you to go inside and connect with something bigger, and in this process you will start releasing these beliefs and this programming that you are not enough, that your gifts are dangerous, that being sensitive is a curse. 


All of these kinds of things will just start to fall away and you will start to realize who it is that you really are and just how powerful you are. 

So, if you are experiencing this loneliness right now going through a spiritual awakening, know that it’s temporary, know that you will feel better and know that you are just going through the purifying fire right now. That is what’s happening. It might feel awful, you might want to check out. PLEASE DO NOT CHECK OUT.  PLEASE DO NOT NUMB.  PLEASE BE PRESENT for this experience and know that this is Spirit cleansing you of everything that is not who you are at your core. It’s going to be OK. You’re going to be fine. 

If you are in dire crisis, please call one of the help lines here.

Sending you tons and tons of looooooooove! 🙌🏼🦉💜✨

xo V